We went to different clinics to see what options were available, tried different medications, treatments, I had two IVFs. We never got many eggs, we couldn’t get them to grow. I still had this belief inside: ‘I will have a family’, also ‘when we do have children we want to be on our ground’, so we moved back to Ireland in 2013. We went to two fertility clinics in Dublin. The second clinic… it felt right. I just had this knowing that I had to feel safe, it had to feel the right place, the right time. From when we walked in, the way the doctor spoke and listened to me, her compassion, humanness, empathy. I really felt she cared… She said ‘you will have your family one day’. It was like she was matching the belief I had, she was connecting into her intuition: ‘these two will be parents’. I underwent IVF treatment tailored to my situation… That two-week wait to take the test… I was afraid to sneeze, walk funny, have a coffee, to do too much in case I did anything to ruin it. It’s all on you, and the pressure! You just want to be bubble-wrapped to make sure nothing can go wrong. We went to the Ireland-Australia rugby game in the Aviva. Our seats were right at the top tier. I walked up the stairs – I’d been told not to do any strenuous exercise! I got to the top – spent the first half of the match crying…‘these stairs – I’ve ruined it’. Because this was our last attempt, I was 35, our life was in limbo. We’d spent so much time, so much money. There was no joy in that two-week wait. When it was up, I went to the clinic, had a blood test, they said they’d call me. I went into the church in Mount Merrion. I wouldn’t go every week to Mass but I do believe. I just sat and prayed… Back out, in the grounds, the clinic rang: I was ‘very pregnant’ – my hormone levels were very high, a really good sign. Oh, I can’t even… I just knew ‘this is it, this is our time’. I couldn’t tell Sean over the phone. I drove to his work, said I needed him to come home. And I told him….but then he had to go back to work. I lay on the couch with my hands holding my stomach, just talking: ‘keep growing, grow, I love you.’ I stayed there until Sean got home from work. We had to wait before we could do a scan. A viable heartbeat is what we wanted to see – when we’d miscarried, we’d been expecting to see a heartbeat and there was none. And the doctor said to us now ‘there’s a heartbeat!’ I can’t describe… it was tears, just tears. And then she said ‘oh there’s two heartbeats’ and we were shaking, we were all in tears, the doctor too. But I knew because I do vision boards and from when we went to the clinic I’d put up pictures of twins, a boy and girl lying beside each other. And I wrote the names we’d call them – Sam and Evie. It was a deep inside knowing – that’s why I never accepted ‘you won’t’. I had talked to them, even before I was pregnant. I’d look at the vision board, say ‘now Sam and Evie, you come now, we’re ready’. I believe it’s your soul that knows, that keeps you going. So this moment in November 2014 was a defining moment in my life. You completely forget the hard journey you’ve had up to that point – you’re brought into this mother energy, my sole focus to make sure these babies grew healthy and strong. I said to them ‘would you just make it to 37 weeks’. We were scheduled for a section at 37 weeks and one day, and they made it, they stuck to the agreement! They were perfect. But I nearly died… in the recovery room after the section I knew something wasn’t right. I was brought back so fast to theatre. I could feel the strength leaving. I needed five litres of blood transfusions, two litres of blood platelets. They had a crash team on in the Coombe, the blood bank was there – because triplets had been born that morning. Only for that I wouldn’t have made it, I was losing blood so fast. Afterwards I was in the high dependency unit, the babies beside me. The doctors had to see I could feed them, and walk, before letting me home. They’re nine years old now. And they are miracles, beautiful miracles. They are the living proof: do not give up. If you believe something can happen, just keep going, one step at a time, keep going. Georgie Durcan is an internationally acclaimed intuitive life coach, healer, and motivational speaker. Learn more about her work at https://www.georgiedurcan.com/.