Andrew Flintoff has admitted there were times when he wished he had died in the horrific Top Gear car crash three years ago that left him disfigured. In a new Disney+ documentary, entitled simply Flintoff, the former England cricket captain describes the depression and post-traumatic stress that rooted him to his living-room couch for seven months after the accident. “I didn’t think I had it in me to get through,” Flintoff tells Disney’s cameras. “This sounds awful: part of me wishes I’d been killed. Part of me thinks ‘I wish I had died’. I didn’t want to kill myself. I don’t want to mistake the two things. But I was thinking, ‘This would have been so much easier.’”